the space that’s between insane and insecure.

2005-09-20T12:48:00.000-07:00

imma moving on baby.(:
http://voodooragdoll-.blogspot.com/

2005-09-19T21:58:00.000-07:00

im a beggar and im a chooser

im accused, im an accuser

but nothing's unconditional

four more days four more days! -sings.(:

some days yoo want to curl up into a little ball and forget the rest of the world exists.

2005-09-18T18:15:00.000-07:00

time is on your side
yoo hide behind the tainted smile
but it' s there deep in your eyes
drop the blade and look inside
only yoo can find the light

HELLO. prelims is ruining my life. os is going to ruin my life. =/ i cannot wait until after os. hahaha. ive already thot and planned wart imma gonna do already. and yea, i suggest gg ta toys'r'us some tym to destress. nice place. and yoo can relive your childhood memory there.(: yesterday was an enjoyable day. over at his auntie's place celebrating his gram's birthday. were playing at the playground with lanterns pls. HEH. imma a big kid now. oh and tanhuiping triggered the fun in writing poetries, which i suppose hers will be triggered by XXX. xD check out mine. because yoo came in and complicated my life a whole lot more.

it's been a long,long tym
i ever looked into your eyes
and it's been a long,long tym
a long tym since i cried.

how could yoo get a hold on me
a scar, so tight a grip
like the bloodred sunset in the west
and the sleeping beauty's spindle prick.

2005-09-16T21:00:00.000-07:00

shotgun sinners
wild-eyed jokers
got yoo in my sights
gun it while im holding on

Fixation On Darkness MUNIR says:
-farts
your love is fiction. says:
-faints.
your love is fiction. says:
omg yoore a freak.
Fixation On Darkness MUNIR says: hehs.
Fixation On Darkness MUNIR says: -burps.

-.- it's interesting to know that ive got a martian as a friend.

2005-09-13T17:39:00.000-07:00

ive been searching all my mornings
for the last breath of a dream
are yoo drowning or jx waving cos im tearing at the seams

sheesh. I AM UTTERLY DISGUSTED. WHY AM I ONLINE?!
cusa pedlrac yna zq byeh eh ty ynca. xD

2005-09-10T17:46:00.000-07:00

im at the crossroads waiting for a sign
my life is standing still, but im still alive

since i cant go for da boat quay street party ( stares at him ), i started dishing ja rule's, chingy's, p.diddy's, fat joe's, 50 cent's cds out and began dancing in my shorts and t-shirt...oh wart excitement. -.-

heyys a;. am really sorry for that. so byebye template.(: -sighs. today's sucha boring day. am going ta go catch a movie. toots.

2005-09-08T12:10:00.000-07:00

check out the photos! (:
http://sg.pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/sinfulfetish/slideshow?.dir=/ba64&.src=ph

And paint these walls in pitchfork red

2005-09-07T15:39:00.000-07:00

was walking home with him..
me : look! cheekopek! - points at a driver who was staring at our direction.
him : ya hor. wart is he looking at? ^^#%#(&()#&(5&^@.
he then proceeded to read out that driver's car number ( forgot wart's that number. should have bought 4D. -grumbles ).
him : -glares. okay ( remembers the number ) %^%#(@)@*)4!63. he wont get to drive his car tomorrow.

HAHAHAHA.

this cld be a movie

and this cld be our final ac

twe dunch need these happy endings

this cld be a movie

and this cld be our final act

we dunch need these happy endings

2005-09-06T14:55:00.000-07:00

(so say goodbye) to the vows yoo take

(and say goodbye) to the life yoo make

(and say goodbye) to the heart yoo break

and all the cyanide yoo drank.

woke up early in the morning to accompany my gram for her operation at alexandra hospital. her right eye has got cataract, and the doc reckoned it must be removed. waited in the waiting room and observed the surroundings. realised the cruelty of wart life gave us. saw an old man lying on the bed groaning in pain and there were nurses pushing him to the emergency room frantically. his daughter ( i tink ) was weeping and running along the bed. painful. gram came out an hour later, and the first thing she said was i need the toilet. haha. wart a funny old lady. thank god gram was fine.(: gram looked so pitiful thou. old folks always look so pitiful actually. -sighs.

yesterday was fun.(: aint have got extra lessons so beeyotch, him, qw and me wenta his place for pasta. the guys cooked ( cept for beeyotch. he was under depression. hah. ) and i jx hung around and watched. hah. call me the QUEEN. xD am gonna mug later. I WILL MUG!

she's the queen of all ive seen

and every song and city far and near

heaven help me mademoiselle

she rings the bell for all the world to hear

2005-09-05T18:38:00.000-07:00

yoo turn me on
love's like a bomb
blowing my mind

2005-09-03T13:34:00.000-07:00

let these words be the sharpened dagger
piercing thru your paperthin heart.

saturdays are meant for us to study. but psychologically, saturdays feel like a holiday ( well, at least to me xD ) because yoo still have sundays to finish wart yoo cant finish on saturdays. i feel like gg ta the airport and watch the planes fly by. but then again, im plead guilty for not mugging. im tired. so tired. i still wanna sit on the merrygoround. i wanna sit on the merrygoround, with yoo.

i like the way yoo abuse my mind

abuse me all the tym

paranoid yoo're gonna leave me behind

resonate like a bass when yoore pulling my strings even tighter

think im overheating

2005-09-02T20:19:00.000-07:00

im gonna make yoo want to

get with me tonight

im gonna put those naughty

thots into your mind

im gonna show yoo clearly

i can rock your world

yoo're gonna know for sure

that i shld be ya girl

2005-09-02T11:47:00.000-07:00

i wish that i was in your arms

like that Spanish guitar

and yoo wld play me thru the night

'til the dawn

i wish yoo'd hold me in your arms

like that Spanish guitar

all night long

all night long id be your song

id be your song

it's the last day of school. and it's a tradition for the clique to not go ta school ( well, at least it is to me and ma bitch ) so imma home now and freakin out bout my os. but i dunch really care. lord give me the courage to bomb the school tonight. amen. HAHAHA. im bored.

dinner yesterday with eveleen. we were behaving like two very demented kids in mature human body. like VERY. xD cept that i dunch have the boobs to go along with that body that is. -.- had dinner at marche and we were trying to act like we're high-class people. we did fine, minus the part when we held a prawn head and took pictures with it? HAHA. i guess we were far more than demented. i suppose people tink we're crazy. pictures uploaded thanks to tanhuiping.

happy birthday beeyotch.((:

if i told yoo this was killing me,

will yoo stop?

2005-09-01T13:39:00.000-07:00

i wonder why it always has to hurt

for every lesson that yoo have to learn

i wont forget wart yoo did to me

how you showed me things

i wish id nvr seen

but i was stupid

and yoo broke me down

ill nvr be the same again

arghs. my com screwed. and i have to type the whole damn thing down again. -grumbles.

be-yourself-day yesterday. dyce and ohm didnt go to school.): oh, girlfriend and volt wore retro. so pretty pls! (: wenta watch the maid (like again.hah) with him, girlfriend, volt, beeyotch, qw and eugene after school. and ALL OF US (cept' beeyotch and qw) sent volt bacq to hougang and ALL OF US went bacq ta town again. hah. qw went home and the rest of us hung around in town abit. headed ta esplanade and guess wart? WE TOOK DA BUMBOAT RIDE AT DA SINGAPORE RIVER. how cool can it be? gosh, and the scenary's like so beautiful PLUS i gotta see it with yoo:))

da view from da bumboat. :D

2005-08-30T21:58:00.000-07:00

because the blackest nights could use some blue

to paint the portrait perfect image that fills our eyes

HELLO. (: i am not happy. (: but i shall try to be happy. (: YAY. :D HAHAHA. wart bullshit. my tolerance is running low these days. i shall write all my rants in CAPS.

ERASED. //-

okay i feel much better. cant believe im blogging at a tym like this. rushing this and that and totally freaked for os. but hahaha too bad for my happy-go-unlucky attitude.

2005-08-29T04:43:00.000-07:00

finally put a lock on our closed door

and yoo will not break thru

and we'll try to put smiles on our face

and see who is the quickest to replace our lost and broken love

I AM SO BORED. and i have this intense feeling of dread bout gg to sch tomorrow. it sucks so bad. i dunch know why but somehow i see no point in studying anymore. it's the exam blues. darn. SIGH. i hate this feeling, euphoria one second, then sadness overwhelms. RAHH. i rightly should be mugging my brains out. arghs.

maybe i shouldnt go to school tomorrow.

2005-08-27T14:54:00.000-07:00

& yoo wish it was still the same

but when it's thru, it's thru.

but there's something yoo should know,

before i walk away and i blow the ending.

i would aim my escargot fork,

at a strategic spot on the voodoo doll,

& i would say out loudly in front of all the fashionable restaurant patrons,

"you're such impotent bitches,

& imma gonna make sure yoo're stay that way."

Wham!

it's sucha relieve that it's the weekend, school is becoming sucha drag. PLUS i jx realised that it's already the end of august, which means that os coming. =/ well, somehow life's been passing by real fast. seems to me that ive been losing track of wart's gg on around me. stuffs have changed so much in my pathetic life in sucha short span of tym. exhausting yet so exhilarating. i mugged! like omg im sucha good girl.(: yet someone gave me a VIRTUAL reward instead of a REAL one. pffft. nvm, ill forgive yoo. TOODLES. XD

2005-08-26T21:11:00.000-07:00

and all the roads that lead yoo there were winding

and all the lights that light the way are blinding

there are many things that i would like to say to yo

obut i dunch know how

had a splitting headache. how i wished i could chop my head off pls! but i decided otherwise since someone asked me not to. x) well, puregeography lesson has turned into chemistry lesson recently. tanhuiping's been teaching me chemistry. thanks so much misstan! anyway, misstan's like so spastic la. she was talking to me and drawing about wart she's talking about. lmao. like hello? she treats me like im deaf. xD how can? hmmm.

wenta his house to fix my ipod. finally i can add new songs in. been listening to the same old songs like for a million years. slowdanced.((: piano after that. zzz. ive really gotta watch my diet. ive decided, EXERCISING IS THE KEY. that's my motto. HAHA. like who's talking?

when i look back, it's hard to tell the difference between wart really happened & wart i imagined.

2005-08-25T18:48:00.000-07:00

she pined in thought

and with a green and yellow melancholy

she sat like patience on a monument

smiling at grief.

was not this love indeed?

OMG I WENT JOGGING! and that's an accomplishment mind yoo, since it's been like 8616998742 zillion years since i last jogged. been eating icecream alot so im feeling so guilty ive decided to start jogging again. this way, i can have all the icecream and lollis and chocolates and candies i want. marvellous. (: oh. and studying can be fun once yoo get into it. really.

well.. okay, damnit. that was an understatement. beg me to start studying will ya? BEG ME. -.- imma so glad im finding my way back to sanity again. maybe there's something call an insane kinda sane? hm, im gg mad.

okay, i ought to mug now.

like a clown

i put on a show

the pain is real even if nobody knows

and im crying inside

and nobody knows it but me.

2005-08-24T19:17:00.000-07:00

as long as the stars shine down from the heavens

ill never get over yoo getting over me.

HI. ask me how i am! YAY IM HAPPPPPY! overjoyed, awesome, super satisfied, bursting with joy, super super happy. (: very very satisfied. very very very happy. and i feel super loved. :D HEH. okay im gg crazy. well anyway, last saturday was a super duper fun day. studydate with him (okay, this part is boring), dinner with my family.. yada yada yada. then thia, jed, shar, him and me decided that we should enjoy ourselves. we bought booze home (ah.. delightful indulgence) and played POWERPUFF GIRLS monopoly till two in the morning. HAHA. wart blissful pleasure!

tuesday. the 23rd. happy first monthsary baby. (((((: had swensons and icecream! yumyum! DELICIOUS. but holy shit, i really NEED to exercise pls! imma like growing in width. GOSHGOSHGOSH. TELL ME WART TO DO. oh i need ta mug now.

2005-08-19T23:33:00.000-07:00

baby let me be the one to hold yoo
to give yoo the things i know yoo need
yoo know that we can wait another life tym
and we can nvr find a love jx like this

it's surprising how im having my os this year and i haven mug a single bit yet. how wonderful. =/ kept reminding myself tym and tym again that ive gotta stop zoning out and get down to ~~serious~~ work. man by god's grace i haven really gotten to that part yet. can someone grab a gun and shoot me pls? I AM SO DEAD. GOSH I MUST STUDYSTUDYSTUDY!

2005-08-19T18:58:00.000-07:00

I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO. I HATE YOO.

seeing yoo it KILLS me now.):

2005-08-18T14:21:00.000-07:00

if i ever go deaf because of your music

doesn't really matter

cause yoo're the last person i hear.

my com's kinda screwed again. duh. i nvr know what yoo're thinking about and yoo know wart? i DO NOT intend to find out. ive always thot ive got it figured out, before yoo came and turned my whole world upside down. get this clear, yoo're my biggest mistake. wart's wrong with me? nobody said that it would hurt so bad. lesson learnt: dunch ASSUME. it makes an ASS out of YOO and ME.

2005-08-17T18:43:00.000-07:00

take my photo off the wall

if it just wont sing for you

today was an emotional day i must say. my energy's drained from all the feelings im jx too tired to do anything. i dunch even know wart ta write about. oh yea, ma bitch's birthday yesterday. we played that lucky number game again. gosh, that was terrible. i was forced to eat onions and gingers (which i hate so very much) pls! grrr. we had a supermarket excursion. hah! man my brain's dead and i have no idea wart to write about. yoo're still my guardian angel.

the way your body swings

as i watched yoo from behind

that got me so excited

how cld i fly in

2005-08-16T16:55:00.000-07:00

i nvr really knew that yoo could dance like this.
she makes a man wanna speak spanish.
como se llama? bonita. mi casa, su casa.

today's a tuesday, and now's bout o445pm, and already my brain is frozen. i blamed amath and physics with yap. can i have a little space to help my head thaw and a fag to get the defrosting started? arghs, imma in deep shit la. x( today was a terrible day. vomited in the morning, hurt my eye, broke my hairband.. how bad can a day be? sheesh.))):

well, im wondering. how do so many people know this blog when i haven given anyone cept' for the clique yet? fucking weird. and i cant fucking wait to give yoo a slap on the face.

happy birthday bitch(:

2005-08-16T16:40:00.000-07:00

(( reminisce : shake it off. ))

i gotta shake yoo off
cause the loving ain't the same
and yoo keep on playing games
like you know im here to stay
i gotta shake yoo off
jx like the Calgon commercial
i really gotta get up outta here
and go somewhere
i gotta shake yoo off
gotta make that move
find somebody who
appreciates all the love i give
~~boy~~ i gotta shake yoo off
gotta do wart's best for me
baby and that means i gotta
shake yoo off

by the tymm yoo get this message
it's gonna be too late
so dunch bother paging me
cause ill be on my way
see i grabbed all my diamonds and clothes
jx ask your momma she knows
yoo're gonna miss me baby
hate to say i told yoo so
well at first i didnt know
but now it's clear to me
yoo wld cheat with all your freaks
and lie compulsively
so i packed up my Louis Vuitton
jumped in your ride and took off
yoo'll nvr ever find a girl
who loves yoo more than me

i gotta shake, shake, shake, shake, shake it off.
i found out about a gang
of your dirty little deeds
with this one and that one
by the pool, on the beach, in the streets
heard y'all was
hold up my phone's breakin' up
imma hang up and call the machine right bacq
i gotta get this off of my mind
yoi wasnt worth my tymm
ive leaving yoo behind
cause i need a real love in my life
save this recording because
im nvr coming bacq home
baby im gone
dunchcha know

2005-08-12T17:07:00.000-07:00

there’s no solution

get me thru to my conviction

is my own confusion

reality or fiction

am i out of my mind?

template done finally! thanks sosososo much to my bitch for providing me ya template for some reference. heh. yoo know i love yoo.(: chinese os results out today. oh how i hate mr principal. he's that idiot who implemented the stupid policy thingie bout students who got less than b3 gotta retake the chinese os paper again in nov. hello mr principal? we aint no ri. we're sengkang. -glares

oh well, guess the only good thing is that today's a friday. YAY! i can waste my life away munching on chocolates and candies like that fatboy in charlie and the chocolate factory. maybe i should go try my luck and look for the golden ticket so that i can visit willy wonka's factory and have all the chocolates and candies i want. that'll be great, wont it? sigh, i hate piano lessons.

2005-08-12T12:53:00.000-07:00

something about the way yoo moved
that caught my eye

have yoo ever loved someone so much yoo jx have to let go cause it's hurting so bad and there's nothing yoo can do to go bacq to wart it used to be no matter how hard yoo try? yoo might think that it doesnt matter as long as yoo have that someone to love. i used to think that way too. but heys, ive realised that love works otherwise. if both of yoo aint happy, why carry on? why try to hold on? people change. she may not be who yoo people think she is. she's different from the way she treats yoo guys. she aint no angel. and most certainly, yoo people nvr knew wart happened in actual fact. lmao. why doesnt anyone listen anymore? get this clear, nvr judge a book by its cover. dunch make me feel like a fool, feeling oh so fucking vindicated. cos yoo people knew nothing. nothing.

sometimes i wish i can go *poof* and disappear.

2005-08-12T01:28:00.000-07:00

Haloscan commenting and trackback have been added to this blog.

2005-08-11T22:23:00.000-07:00

the scent of yoo lingers in my room.

that’s jx cause i miss yoo so,

want yoo so,

wish for yoo so.

ive finally decided to stop being so lazy and change my blog. my previous blog kinda screwed up. still, laziness overpowered me and im jx too sluggish to do anything bout the template. anyway, monday was so damn wonderful pls! :D charlie and the chocolate factory with the clique. the oompus loompus looked disgustingly cute. hah. volt, dust and i were being so horny in the theatre la. we were eating the cheesy hotdogs. okay, i aint gonna elaborate much on it. -smirks. xD fireworks with girlfriend and him after that. a date with my girlfriend and my boyfriend. ahh, wart delightful bliss. ((: stayed over at girlfriend's place and we played monopoly. i was the first to be declared bankrupt. -grumbles. x( laksa for brunch cooked by girlfriend's mum. yumyum!

HAPPY SWTT SIXTEEN DEAR.((: